Log splitter!!!!!!!

Oh last night was crazy fun I think? I remember very little! Me and Jules partied like 9th graders with a case of beer!! Went to this dirty little hole in the wall bar that pours 3 for 1 drinks! Well, I started drinking cranberry and vodka then here comes the shots! Jules was drinking rum and coke she likes them. We got trashed! Jules had to carry me to the car! Now my head hurts. This guy that lives at the trailer park behind the motel has been running a damn log splitter all damn day long. It's splitting my head wide open! In a little while were going to go to this dinner buffet at the Excaliber hotel. It's good and only place with good seafood at least I thinks it's the best. No calls yet, I need a date. I did so well with Mr. Freddy I paid the rent and still had money left to party on. I like him. Jules gets to drive this black Lincoln for certain big wigs now, she loves it! Almost like a limo! She's trying to be a limo driver but she got to work her way up for that. I'm gonna change my craigslist now and try to make some cash. Wish me luck!

Love to love you baby!

Oh lord happy Monday! I had a pretty good weekend. Got to see Mr. Freddy, he's back in town for business. All of us at the hotel had a barbecue out by the pool. Plenty of beer, Jules did the grilling and I just watched and drank a bunch of beer! The pervert in 118 didn't come he was too busy wearing my damn thongs! Ms Susan came and sat with us, she don't drink beer but she did bring some potato salad. I was having so much fun then Mr.Freddy called wanted to know if I'd be free at 10 o'clock!! Hell ya! Any time Mr. Freddy calls I'm ready! Dinner and a date love that! He usually drops about $400 on me! I wore a halter dress and my red heels, I looked sexy! We had steak for dinner then went up to his room, ordered a movie and hung out for a bit. He's a good lover too! Wish I could find a good man like him to be my boyfriend. I always pick the losers. I'm going shopping later get me some new drawers and maybe some short shorts :)

Numb.

My life is a mess. I went to the "pink pony" to dance last night. Made a pocket full of money! Paid my rent for two weeks, bought a real sexy thong for work. It's black with rhinestones! So pretty, I'm heading to the mall to get me some boots to match my thong! Me and Jules smoked a blunt now I'm numb. I'm jumping in the pool as soon as I get back! It sure would be nice to get a date now, with some business man who wants to treat me to dinner! I'm so damn hungry! If I don't get a call from my Craigslist ad I'm going back to the pony. I'm sick to death dancing on a bar for money. I'm good at it but I feel like I'm getting to old. So I'm gonna focus on my Craigslist ad. It's much easier and quicker! I shaved my tootie a bit ago, it's growing back and I'm scratching like crack head! I miss my family, my aunt Gaynelle and Jessica, not Terry she's a nasty meth head. They would be disappointed in my choice of careers. Easy money! Once you give yourself away for money you lose all self worth. It gets easier. That makes me numb too.

If all else fails.

I almost didn't want to talk about my life today. But here I go. Had a date last night, some nasty guy with greasy hair. His old Cadillac smelled like cigars and sweat. He said he's from Vegas, but nobody is from Vegas! I made $80 big deal :( I'm just going through a rough time. Today I did go buy a new bikini, purple with white stripes. Not as cute as the red one. I got a date later with some young guy. They're usually ok but sometimes they last too long! I'm gonna finish this 12 pack before my date. The nice lady next door from me has had it rough too, so I invited her to come drink with me. She had a couple but I could see her getting tired. We spoke about my daddy and it made me call him. He wants me to come home again. I just acted like I didn't hear him. Anyhow, my tan looks good so I know what I'll wear tonight. A strapless hot pink dress and my red high heels. Sexy!! At least I'll look good tonight if all else fails!

Damn perverts :(

You are not gonna believe what happened!!! I strung a clothes line outside right behind my room. It's private, you can't see it from the street. I hand washed my things I wear to dance in and some nasty fucker stole everything on the damn line!!!!! What the hell now what am I suppose to do for work clothes! I got $23 dollars to my name. I got to come up with a date soon! I'll update my craigslist ad and see if I can get a date. This is when you get messed up. Start taking chances without considering all the things you should be paying attention to. Is he a business man? Is he clean? Will he not strangle me?? I need money and I can't dance now, even my red bikini is gone! I guess I could find an all nude dancing job! I just want to go swimming but I got to think of something to do to make money. I bet it's that creepy old man staying in room 114. He's weird and is probably wearing them around his room! Damn perverts!

Picking up strays.

So let me tell you what happened last night! This girl at the club was trying to dance and make her money. Her dumb ass boyfriend came up to the club with a bag of Mc Donalds for her. She needed it don't look like she's eaten in a damn week. Anyhow, he put a rig, or a shot full of heroin, in the bag so she could dance high I guess. The manager of the club opened the bag and saw it, called the police and had her arrested!! I feel sorry for her. She's an addict, a nasty stripper and now she has no job. I know all choices she made. But, she's past having a good time on heroin now she has to have it. I just hope she finds the strength to pull herself up before she dies. My life ain't so bad when I see how she's living. If I had a big farm somewhere I'd take in all the strays. So they could live free. I'd pick up the stray dogs and cats too!