Two girl party, me and Mona.

      I am soooooo stoned! This guy came in from Oregon and wanted a two girl party so me and Mona split the date. I don't mind being with a girl, especially for money. Mona is real pretty like an Indian girl. She's from New Mexico, moved to Nevada to look for work in some company but after doin' the office admin job for a while she wanted something less boring. She said she dared herself to look into the bunny ranch. Now she loves her job!

I'm trying not to think about cocaine tonight. For some reason I want to get high. I saw Roberta snortin' a line earlier and I haven't stopped thinking about it. Why does it matter if I destroy my life with drugs? What's it worth anyhow? What am I worth? Apparently about $100 an hour plus tip. For a Kentucky girl with a GED and no mother $100 is pretty good. Jules says I'm awesome and should not think this way but she doesn't understand when I get depressed, I feel terrible. Tuesday will be better.  

My first day on line-up!!

Today is the big day! I'm tan, my hair looks nice and my toenails and fingernails are bright red! Sex with men I don't know is nothing new but living up to the standard expected of you here is something new. They say if I stick around I should work on my accent and getting my GED it'll help me be more interesting. Jules is on line-up with me today, she told me not to worry about a thing just have fun. She's a big girl but not like you could tell it if you didn't see her. She just strolls like a 100 lb. girl with all the confidence in the world. I'm gonna barrow some of that today!

I'll try to take some picture but they are strict about what and where you can do that here. I'm gonna work as much as I can for the next few days to make some money and pay my rent here. It's not that expensive $45 a week for my room, my hair and make-up expense, and anything I want to eat from the kitchen other then the soup and salad bar which is free :) For someone who barely had birthday parties or Christmas presents this is like paradise!