Birds of a feather.

   I have decided to go back to the bunny ranch in the morning.  LA is gettin' under my skin and I don't like to live this way.  Jules is wantin' to get back and beat Willie up for leaving me in LA anyhow.  I don't care about that anymore, I mean I got to see LA and live here for a bit. Them boots I got will make me a lot of money back at the ranch, here I'll just wear 'em out dancing on a stage for way less money!

      Earlier I got a couple of dime bags from the boy at the end of the motel.  Sittin' here waiting for him to come back to serve me I noticed his momma and him have lived in that room a long time.  I can't live here like his bird, in  a cage watching all the rich people live high on the hog while I live in a dirty motel sellin' my ass to continue livin' in a dirty motel. Making it here is so low to how we were livin', why stay here and be motel trash?  I feel sorry for that little fella, both of them.

My Aunt Bunny and her baby Krystal.

I've been looking through what I have left of my past. This little photo album is full of how nice things were before my life got shot all to hell with drugs and men and other bullshit. Being a kid in Kentucky was fun, it changed so fast it seems. My days were spent between Aunt Gaynelle and her sister Bunny. Bunny was always wanting kids, but something is wrong with her vagina it's tilted or something anyhow she liked raising me up and sewing clothes for me.

Summers come and went and her vagina stayed tilted so she went and adopted a baby from Ohio.  She named her Krystal May, which is a beautiful name.  Krystal's momma was addicted to cocaine when she was born so the state took her and my Aunt adopted her as a baby.  She adored that child, made her beautiful handmade dresses and entered her in beauty contests which she did very well in.  That was years ago, Krystal is in high school now and is a good girl.  I hope she stays away from trouble.  Aunt Bunny is mad at me, I stole some stuff from her house when I was high once.  I still feel terrible about it.  Even if I repaid her it will never be the same.

Last night in hell!

The excitement is like Christmas!!! My EOS or end of sentence is tomorrow and I'll be out of this hell hole. Daddy came to visit me tonight he's stayin' at the Budget Inn right down the street from the jail. He got a room for the weekend and said we could relax and hang out there together. If he can get a few extra bucks he'll get me a week there to get ready before I leave for Las Vegas. I truly can't believe I'm going all the way to Las Vegas!!!

Teehsa is afraid to go. Her momma is looking forward to her being here and she said she wants to go but her family is a big part of her life. Mine ain't, I don't even know my momma and don't care too. She said if we do go all the way to the bunny ranch she won't work there. She found a job in a can making factory in a city called Phrump or something like that. It's in the same town as the bunny ranch I'm going to work at. I love Teesha and don't want to go by myself.

Day dreamin' about night dreamin'

So today I was lookin' into the whole bunny ranch thing out in Las Vegas. I think I could do that! Really! I go out with guys and end up having sex with 'em for little or nothing, might as well get paid?? I been thinking about it all day, how glamorous to stay at the bunny ranch waiting for men to come and choose you! Probably just a pipe dream, a dope pipe dream.

I dreamt about getting high last night. It felt so good, it was like the first time I ever smoked crack. Sooo high. Travis my cousin that's in prison for burglary showed me crack for the first time in high school. His momma and daddy are in the picture above. They are so good to me. Sent me $10 for cookies along with the nicest letter.