Drunk and outta work. Happy Mardi Gras!!

Hey everyone, I'm here. Drunk and on the rag. You know life is just bullshit. I got fired from the club. No job now. Mr. beef jerky said he'll help me but I don't like to rely on it. What kind of man makes a living off homemade beef jerky?? It's good I like it and all, but how long is beef jerky interesting? I'm tired of bein a hoe too. I've sold my ass forever and now I'm sick of it. I think I'm sick of everything.

Mardi Gras was a lot of fun, I did make a bunch of money and then I got fired. Drunk every night on stage, shaking my ass on shaky ankles in sky high heels. It's a sway you get use to, hell I'd make a good sailor cause I got my damn sea legs!! Hahahahah, lol! Oh fuck I need more rum. Who wants me? Anyone? I need a job

Cheap paint and lumpy boobs.

Everyday is such a struggle. We went to Home Depot today and I bought some miss tint paint. Mr. Beef jerky needs his kitchen painted in a bad way and be in's he's a single man, he needs a womens touch. Besides it puts me in good with him. It looks good! See I got all kinds of skills! I've been trying to get him to take me to Daytona for race week, it's so much fun! I could probably get my old job back at the Shark's Lounge for a week or so. He won't do it, he don't like to leave Louisiana. I love it here too but I am a rambler, don't like to be anywhere too long. Dancing here is piss poor unless there's tourists.

I did talk to my daddy. He wants me to come home again. I just can't live in Kentucky, there ain't nothing there for me. He said aunt Gaynelle found a lump on her boob. He said they think it's cancer, if it is I'm going home. She's the only momma I ever had. My momma left when I was a baby. Don't care to know her, anyone leave a baby and run off with a truck driver is not worth my knowin'!

Th past is coming to take me away :(

It just so happens I talked to my ex-boyfriend!! The one that got me arrested for driving that stolen car??? Fuck in loser!! He wanted to come hook up with me??!!! Mr. beef jerky don't know about it or his blood pressure would go through the roof! If I didn't have bad luck I wouldn't have no luck at all! What's he think I just wait to hear from him! I can't believe him!
I'm not happy about him. He is the reason I'm a whore. I'm a dancer. Just trash. I was a happy country girl when I met him now I sell my ass or at least a hand job for pennies!! How can he try and show up on me again ! I got nothing for him, nothing of value! My oldman is gonna be pissed off! He ain't much but treats me way better then my ex this is gonna mess up my life again. He's riding a bike now. Wants to come pick me up and head out to some biker thing in south Dakota. Well I am not going!!!

It is what it is...

It's a good day! Daddy's team won!!! Me, I lost the football pool at work now I need that money back! I bet $50 damn it :( oh well easy come easy go. I talked to daddy he said my cousin Jessica got a job! Her momma my aunt gaynelle, watches the baby for her, which is just fine for her she's crazy about that baby!!! They want me to come home and help babysit. They always got some reason to come home. They just don't understand. Daddy won't want me to whore it up at home and I ain't fit to work a regular job. This has been the struggle of my life. Stay at home in nowhere Kentucky, or live loose somewhere big? No sence in tryin to figure it out I've spent too long on it and I always end up like this.

Lame ass Monday.

I didn't do a damn thing today. Days like this drive me nuts. I did speak to my daddy he's been drinking too much I can tell. I should have gone to the damn laundry mat today, beings I'm so lazy I had to wash some drawers in the sink and let them dry over a chair. No work tonight and not enough money to go out drinking so I suppose I'll stay home and watch the damn boob tube.
I made a new man friend, his name is Charles. He is a friend of the beef jerky man. He's sweet on me I can tell. I don't know if he knows my time has a price on it. I don't need a boyfriend, I need an old man with plenty of money. I sure could use a cold beer. If I go out I'd only have enough for two or three beers and that ain't enough.
Oh lordy it's dull like the dust today. I guess I'll sign off here and walk down to the wash-a-teria for a load of laundry and a beer anyhow, if I don't get off my ass it'll just get bigger!

I love Saturdays.

Today was a good day. I had the best hot dog today. I wish I could eat hot dogs everyday. Me an Mr. beef jerky went up to the flea market. He is gonna set up a table there on the weekends to sell his beef jerky. I talked him outta $20 for some new sexy panties and some gold earrings. I'll have to wear 'em for him but I need 'em.

I work tonight. It'll be busy. Daddy sent me a funny card the other day, I wish I could go see him. The card said, "You're awesome just like your daddy!" and it had a picture of a duck. I guess you got to see it. There's no work in Kentucky for me. I've been doing this hustle so long what an I gonna do work at Burger King??? Hell I'm ruined.

I got to make rent tonight. Damn I'm still hungry. I'm getting fat. If I get to much belly I won't fit into my clothes. Even though I don't wear them a lot. Maybe I'll color my hair black?? What do you think??